tilt

Doo Da Lang came over tonight for some mixing on the new album. We've set a date for mastering in 2 weeks and it's time to get it done and finished. I've watched versions of this scene (see photo) for the past year and half as we worked on this thing. the studio has changed and so have we. songs got recorded that hadn't been written before we started. it's been a long process and i'm sad and scared to see it coming to an end. i said this before, but the real work comes after all this work is finished. it's done and now i have to convince people to listen to it. also, Doo Da Lang's life has changed so much in the past year. Naturally, because of life changes, our relationship has changed too. we had a long discussion about the future of our live performances together. things are still undecided, which is okay for now, but i have a feeling that our paths are diverging. i am sad. not necessarily because of how much has changed, but just that things change at all. i wish, like a small child, that some elements of my life would stay suspended. or that i were a trust fund baby with a fortune enough to employ my friends to do whatever they wanted full-time.

it's getting colder at night and stays cooler longer in the mornings. we've tilted away from the sun. the season's change-of-heart is happening and, as usual, i resist and wish it weren't so.