suddenly i see

the weather is weird. alternately sunny and wonderful, and then breezy and too cold for the end of May. i'm seriously afraid i'm not going to get my first summer sun burn before June....i come from dark skinned Italians....i've been pasty for too long this year!!

it's been a weird couple of days. have felt really off. confused, bewildered, depressed and irritable. thought maybe it was a spring cold or something, but it's not--i'm not physically sick, just mentally fatigued. can't remember the last time i sat down and created something, which makes me sad. too much time in front of the computer.

of course, i'm thinking about all these little tiny complaints as i'm making my way home this afternoon and i see 2 students from the Maryland School for the Blind being instructed on how to listen for cars and cross the street. my heart jumped and i realized (again, for the zillionth time), how easy life is for me. i'm grateful for whatever force, be it metaphysical or random that places these moments in my path. it's like a nice b****slap to stop being such a self-pitying, little whin-y complain-er.

in other news, I watched a few of the songs of Little Shop of Horrors to prepare for the summer job. I was in this musical in high school, although I played Bag Lady #3 and wanted so desperately to be playing Audrey.....but Rick Moranis is great in this. I stopped it right before the Dentist gets fed to the plant. oops, I found out that one of the songs I want to do with these kids has the word "whore" in it. hmm....don't think the parents will go for that one.