i feel like i missed the whole month of July. i'm a bit sad about that. summer is my favorite season and it's been flying by. i'm not complaining. busy is good. busy is money to invest back in the e.c. company. busy is money to pay for strings and food and bills. busy is just....well, busy. i did alot of stuff in July, but the enjoyment of the stuff, it was too small. too rushed. i couldn't sit back and watch things happen. i was in the thick of it with little or no time for reflection.
i'm sorry if you've visiting here and wondering what the heck happened. also, not blogging has meant that i haven't been keeping up on my diary either. i think today's the day to catch up on that. and a whole host of other things too.
plus, the weather is insane today. sunny, sparse whispy clouds. breezy. this dry, warm day.......i just had the feeling come over me that it was 1980 and it's May in Texas. i'm sitting on the curb outside my house and i have that thrill. you know the thrill: everything is front of you and you don't know anything. everything is still yet to be learned, to be heard, to be seen. i'm only 5 years on the planet and although i've observed alot, there's still alot to be observed.
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two men just walked by on the sidewalk behind my house, speaking a language i don't know. it brought me back to here, where i'm sitting on my porch in Baltimore. that 5 year old i was talking about above, she's 30 years ago almost. i'm back here now, but it still feels like a Texas day in early summer. i'm suddenly homesick. not for a place, but for a time and place that can never be again.
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